THIS LADY. Jorine Lee

2012-02-03T18:19:00.001+14:00

You are always what i wanted from long ago but because of certain reason i got to give up on you.
I walked pass the place, the place that you are always there.. But i didn't see you that day, i was disappointed but there's nothing much i could do..

Last week, i walked pass the place again.. Hoping to see you there.
And thanks, you never failed me and you were there. Im happy, im excited.
I cant resist the temptation anymore and im tempted to get you straight away.
I don't want to miss this chance to be together with you again.. And so i got you! And promise to stay with you for the next 2 years of my life.

Now im with you every second, every minutes, every hour and everyday.
This is our honeymoon period, I wont disappoint you and hope you don't disappoint me too. I promise, i will never let go of my hand and let you fall. Because i know, once you fall.. It will cause a scar on you forever. So please trust me, my IPHONE :D

LOL, sorry peeps.. Im just trying to be random :x

2012-01-24T00:21:00.000+14:00

FAMILY OUTING!
Second day of Chinese new year, when to watch movie with my family and relative.. We all occupied 2 rows of the cinema! It's cool, isn't it? LOL

Last year we went to watch the da shi jie, this year we watched dance dance dragon. Mum commented that this year show was better. While we all feel that both is okay. Hmm, maybe it's just the baby in the show that make it more funny and interesting bah..

Watching movie during new year have alr turn into a must for us every new ear. At first, it's kinda of funny watching with the whole family. Because youngster like us, always watch show with friend, instead of family. But now overall still okay,, Still feel weird sometimes, but not that weird anymore. HAHA, it's just me i guess.

2012-01-23T07:07:00.001+14:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE! :D

Totally not prepare for this year new year at all.. Never cut hair, no new hair style, never dye hair and never go out shop for new year shirt. Everyday either work or school, school or work. Sian to the max..

HAHAHA, tmr will be going out to pai nian then Tuesday i will be starting work. this is torturing isn't it? But i totally got no choice ): Hope i get alot alot of angpao, i don't mind getting lesser angpao but with lots of money inside! LOL :D

I WANT MONEY, MONEY MONEY COME! HEE HEE, so money face. Well, that's me! You will understand how important is money when you are force to work for your own expenses and all.

Okay, never mind. Drop the subject about money. Wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR, and hope everything goes well the whole of this year. Heard that this year, rooster 5 out of 5 stars. Luck and all will be not bad. Hope that's the true! :D

Hahaha, im going to sleep alr! tmr need go pai nian alr. GOODNIGHT EVERYONE! :D

Girl, do you know how much i miss you?

2012-01-17T14:49:00.000+14:00

It's proven from today onwards, all you need to do is throw away all my staff and put yours in. And the same applies.. Your solution is the lousiest solution i ever hear, i ever see and i ever thought of.

Don't always ask, nag or even scold me that why i always go home so late. Come on, see what you have done. This is the FUCKING REASON why i rather stay outside then get my ass back this home.

Yes, I got no rights and control over it.
Whatever you say is the final decision, then so be it, what more can i do?
Whatever that i say is just shit to you, nothing goes in that brain of yours. then why still bother to ask me and make me explain myself why i want things to be the other way round? Next time, just do as what you have done today.
JUST COMMAND ME TO DO IT.

I got enough of all this shit. I can no longer find the warmth, and i can no longer give it a chance. How many chances do i need to give, for you all to show me and prove to me that you all still cares and loved me? So this is the way you care for me, and this is how much you loved me?
THANKS ALOT MAN!
That's no longer a home to me, that's no longer my room but your NEW store room. From now on, it's just a hotel and sorry to mention this. But it's the lowest class hotel i ever seen.

In here is the only place for me to throw my temper, because you will never get to see it. But if one day, you really got to see this. Or some other people read it and tell you about this. I just want to tell you this.
'Sorry, you can say that I'm selfish. you can say whatever you like to say. but I'm totally disappointed in you and with all this shit happening. i always tell myself that I'm in a position that is much better then so many people outside. but now, now i find no reason for me to think and say it that way anymore.'

2012-01-01T01:53:00.002+14:00

Hahahah! There goes Christmas and here come NEW YEAR!!

Last year; this day, i went esplanade to count down with Lydia and dawn.
Squeezing among the crowd, fighting our way through and finding the best place to stand and watch the fireworks.
Counting down with many other people there, and wishing each other happy new year when the clock strikes 12.
The joy and fun there, is over flowing to the max!

This year, it was totally a different story. For both Christmas and new year..
I didn't have any plan, didn't have any date.. The only 'person' that date me is my boss. Asking me to work.Sian to the max, but i got no choice.
Was also thinking since i got no plan, why not? Just go work and earn more money..

End work at 11pm on the 31st of December then went to eat supper with Lydia and hongbin at s11.
Planned to go celebrate new year after the supper cause three of us is REALLLLLLY BOREDDDD!
HAHAHA! Lydia and i decided to go home and change out our uniform before we go out to party..
While walking back to my house, the clock strike 12. HAPPY NEW YEAR! The first person i met this new year, 201, was Lydia :D

Met up with hongbin and when to celebrate new year, party whole night!
Not forgetting that i got to work the very next morning at 830am. This is damn torturing, because i cant really enjoy myself!
Ahha, but it's okay at least it's better then staying at home an sleep. You guys should know, youngster like us will never stay home and count down. Unless we got events and party at home..
After party, when out to the road to get a cab. and the horror part started, along the whole road side was flooded with people that want to take cab. And all the cab that drive pass is all hired.
First thoughts that come to my mind was, 'shit how i work tmr if i cant go home and get some rest -.-'

But i guess my luck in 2012 wasn't that bad!
Met this taxi uncle that stop his taxi infront of me. with the sign on top, showing busy.
Ask where am i going. I reply, serangoon please uncle. After few second, the uncle agreed. Whohoo! lucky me! :D send Lydia home, next was me, and hongbin was the last.

There goes another new year, just like that..
Now is the start of a brand new year, and it's a brand new start to everything.
Hope everything turn out well this year and everything go smoothly!
All the best to everyone out there and once again HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!

I cant help it but started to miss you so much ):

2011-12-24T19:02:00.004+14:00

HI READERS, HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVER!!
[For your info, if you cant read the sentence on top. There must be because you are color blind, time to get your eye check- up!!]

Christmas is nothing for me this year. Cause i got to work, so i cant go out there to enjoy like what's everyone doing now.
I still remember, last year Christmas. I went out with Lydia and dawn to town, and our aim was to take photo with all the Christmas tree in town :D
OMG~ that was such a great time memories.
Christmas is always packed with people along the streets and the worst of all for last year was. It's raining, such a torture on a happy day right? HAHAHA

Brought this year's Christmas card for some of the friends, but even till now i have not do one.
im totally procastinating, i know! -.-
Im so tired, after work! while on the other day, i don't even have the time to do it. Hais, that's working life. How can i complain so much? What more can i do, i need the money to survive.

okayokay, i shall go and do the card now and stop delaying. Will go and buy some present to go with the cards (:
Hmm, what should i get for them?? Guys, what do you want?

2011-12-10T21:35:00.009+14:00

HAHAHA, A NEW MEMBER ADDED TO OUR LEE'S FAMILY ON THE 6TH DECEMBER 2011!!

From today onwards, i got to address this lady as my sister in law. And of course this means, the man standing beside her is my elder brother.

Waking up in the wee hours, preparing to go over to the bride's house. Gate crashing and numerous mosquito bite.

Wanted to make the wedding extraordinary, sister in law decide to wear the fusion of chinese qi poa and western wedding dress to go back her house to have the tea ceremory to her family. She's god damn pretty isnt it?

Wedding dinner was held at Amara Sanctuary Resort Sentosa. Exchange of vows was made in the glass room and events was planned after the made of vows.

Like ringing of bells located at the top of the glass rings, letting all the colorful balloon fly in the sky.

Dinner was awesome with all the video, music, food, groom's mate and bride's mate dances and of course the groom and bride's dance.
Wonderful speech by the emcee, bride and groom 'thank you' message to both parties parents and the guest for coming.

Once again, this is my sister in law and big brother.
Let's wish them, 新婚快乐, 白头到老 and lastly 早生贵子! :D

2011-11-27T15:56:00.000+14:00

Always thought that i have been facing the world and know the cruel side of human.
Always thought that i have change and grown up as time passed by.
Always thought that I'm stronger each time i stand up after a big fall.
But i guess, this time round I'm wrong. Totally wrong!

Humans are weird and we are complicated.
For some reason, we will be able to do some staff out of our own control. This might leads to different situation.
One is that, we will hurt the people around us, but yet we didn't know anything about it. And the other is, friendship/ relationship become better.

As time passed by, i thought i have change into a better person with a better understanding towards life.
I thought i have grown up, acting just like a young adult.
But I'm wrong, it might just be that I'm walking a little faster then the rest at my age, but that doesn't mean i have experience and know it all..
Because there's so many things in life that i have not experience and yet to see it.

Living on earth, is just like fighting a war. Even if you are fully shield and prepare today, at some point of time in life, you still need some time to re-charge yourself, reload your weapon and stand up for the war again.

I broke down yesterday night unknowingly. Time didn't stop for me, it still goes on like a normal night.
Friends that can be there, were there for me.
I told you that i just need a night.. i just want to be a night a weakling and the very next morning i will be standing up to face the world again.
That's a promise, and i did it.
Because i know somethings in life, we just need to take it as a shit.
As i totally agreed with this; shit happens, but life still goes on.

2011-11-25T20:48:00.001+14:00

Hahaha i passed my TT6! OMG, it's like a FINALLY! I have been taking this exam for so many times, and this time round i finally passed. I didn't manage to get a good result but i really thank god that i pass it. Becuase i need to pass this module, in order for me to go to ACCA next year. Now, EXAM IS OVER! Come to think of it, i have took quite long to pass all my exam and continue with my studies.. ACCA, im coming your way now! I promise to work double hard and scored well next year. And i will not take so long to pass my exam anymore.

Now it's party time! hahahah, i really miss all the entertainment! Like going out to sing k, going to play pool, going to hk cafe past midnight just for our supper, going to drink or just simply hanging out with my friends. Talking all days long and asking each other stupid question.

WHOOHOO! Went for a crab feast with lydia and dawn yesterday night. Celebrating the successful attempt for our exam. Lydia passed her TT7 too! Honestly, im super proud of her. Because she only take few days to study for her TT7 and she passed it on her first attempt! While i have study so hard for my TT6 and taking the exam for so mamy times. I only passed it on my forth or fifth attempt.
WELL GOOD JOB LYDIA, KEEP IT UP! :D always remember i will be here supporting you all the way :D

Hmm, I guess i need to spend some time hanging out with this two girls. Time for me to catch up with them! I just feel that i miss out so much.. i dont know why ):

2011-11-22T01:08:00.005+14:00

Dear friend, thank you! :D
You never failed to drop me a call and message to always cheer me up and make my day.
I'm not sure and i don't know if all this is real or fake. But i just choose to believe and trust that you really mean it.
I'm sorry, i don't mean to doubt you. But i really want to make sure it's real.
Well, whatever it is.. I dont even think you will ever get to read this. Because you dont even know that i got a blog.
But if one day you do, and you happen to read this.
Please, tell me that it's all real and it come out from your heart..

2011-11-21T12:57:00.003+14:00

I have been wanting to blog since last friday.. but im just too lazy and i keep procrastinating.

Why does it seem so hard to pass this module?
I had studied and i really tried my best but yet why cant i just freaking pass it?
First i got 46percent, then i got 47percent. It's almost there, always almost there.
I have been paying for my own exam, because i don't know how am i going to tell my mum about the result.
I can imagine her reaction now, even before i tell her.
Parent always think that studying and exam is so easy. It's like as easy as reading ABC.
So if i don't do well, means it's my fault.
Just because my sibling can do it, why cant i?
Okay that's what i hate, so what if they can do it? They are they and me is me. Why compare?
If you want to compare, then why do you dote them more then me?
Ask yourself, are you bias against them?
WHATEVER!
I think i started to give up on myself.
The more hope i carry, the more hurtful it is the next time i fall.
Maybe it's time for me to give up hope and accept the fact? The fact that im just a useless person. Im just someone that can never reached the standard that they set.
im totally disappointed with my parents, my family and MYSELF.

Im tired of this kind of life, i just want a break.

2011-11-15T03:36:00.000+14:00

Promise are made to be fulfill.

If one day, you want to run away..
Don't afraid to call me.
I don't promise to ask you to stay, but i can run with you or provide you with a shelter.

If one day, you feel trouble, lost or stressed and want someone to talk to..
Call me.
I promise, i will lend you a listening ear.

If one day, you feel like crying..
Call me.
I dont promise you that i will make you laugh, but i can lend you a shoulder to cry on.
And i will assure you that everything will be alright the next time.

If one day, you dont want to listen to anybody..
Call me.
I promise to be very quiet on the phone, and i will keep you accompany.

If one day, you need one big hug..
Call me.
I promise i will rush down to where you are, and give you a big big hug.

I promise you no matter what happens, when you look back, i will be there.

2011-11-03T16:34:00.000+14:00

There goes the trust we had for each other.
Thanks you for treating me like a 3 years old kid, trying to fool around with me. Thinking that i will be an idiot that know nothing.
So well, since that's the case.. Now i got the total rights to present myself and act like a 3 years old kid, a fool and an idiot to throw my temper on facebook, on twitter, in my blog.

I found out something that i shouldn't know.. Do you know that it's god damn torture?
How do you expect me to pretend that i didn't know anything?
Honestly, i didn't realised how much you mean to me till this thing happen. Because it really broke my heart and kept me thinking the whole of yesterday night, why all this will happen.
But i guess, it's really time for me to wake up and face the cruel fact that life's a bitch!

Well, i had lost you as a friend. And you had also lost me as a friend.
All this put an ugly full-stop to our friendship, and there it goes.
Please get this whole situation right and know that it's the end.
You, yourself know it very clearly what im talking about.

Thanks for the wonderful life experience. Dont worry, I wont hate you. Because you are the one that make me grow stronger.

2011-10-31T23:58:00.000+14:00

CASH (on hand) TIGHT!!!

Because of the situation i'm in now.. I started to realised that this two weeks i have been spending quite alot. I don't remember myself to be like that. I used to be someone that will take a very long time to think if i really need the things before i bought it home. But now within the short period of two weeks, i brought:

1. A new orange slipper; cotton on
2. Black belt; cotton on
3. Cardigan; cotton on
4. Ring
5. Shoes; Jetsettles
6. Watch; Casio
7. A Chinese story book

So far, this were what i remember. But i guess there's more!
OMG~ there's where all my money!
Honestly, i didn't regret buying all those things. HAHAHAH, you people should know girls like us always buy thing without thinking. And we will tend to regret buying it when we reach home or after a while.
But this time round, im totally happy and satisfied with what i brought.
THANK GOD, otherwise i will really kill myself for spending so much :X

PS: I still feel like buying so many things that cost up to $700 -.- Haiyo

2011-10-28T04:36:00.003+14:00

Hi everyone, im back again! :D
Are you still here waiting for my lastest updates?
Time flies, and the last post was on the 19th Aug and now is 28 Oct. There goes my two month and nine days. Two months is not long but on the other hand, two months is not short.

Dawn wrote on her blog saying that she's going to start this soon..
Day 1 - your best friend.
Day 2 - your crush.
Day 3 - your parents.
Day 4 - your sibling.
Day 5 - your dreams.
Day 6 - a stranger.
Day 7 - your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush.
Day 8 - your favorite internet friend.
Day 9 - someone you wish you could meet.
Day 10 - someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to.
Day 11 - a deceased person you wish you could talk to.
Day 12 - the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain.
Day 13 - someone you wish could forgive you.
Day 14 - someone you’ve drifted away from.
Day 15 - the person you miss the most.
Day 16 - someone that’s not in your state/country.
Day 17 - someone from your childhood.
Day 18 - the person that you wish you could be.
Day 19 - someone that pesters your mind—good or bad.
Day 20 - the one that broke your heart the hardest.
Day 21 - someone you judged by their first impression.
Day 22 - someone you want to give a second chance to.
Day 23 - the last person you kissed.
Day 24 - the person that gave you your favorite memory.
Day 25 - the person you know that is going through the worst of times.
Day 26 - the last person you made a pinky promise to.
Day 27 - the friendliest person you knew for only one day.
Day 28 - someone that changed your life.
Day 29 - the person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to.
Day 30 - your reflection in the mirror.

She said that it's because it seems cool and also to motivate her to blog daily. Well, actually im considering to start this too, HAHAHA :D
So, should i or should i not? Hmmm

2011-08-19T05:59:00.003+14:00

30 mins spent with you, was just like few hours. Random chats, heart to heart talk and jokes were all the past and now it all left with silent and cold atmosphere.

Now, we both clearly know that things had change. I don’t know how to start a conversation with you anymore. I don’t know what kind of respond or reaction to gave you anymore. Photo that remind me of our past, i dont know why but it all seem to be bad memories now.I got enough of all your jokes and crap.

Well, I guess no one will ever understand how i really feel. Becuase i believe not everyone will have the experience like that. So whao, thanks for the rare memories that you left for me. Hah, now you got what you want? Trying to show it off? Honestly, i'm really dissapointed in you girl. Come on, get a life. Dont be so silly, this world is cruel.

Well, but maybe I can only blame myself? Blame myselfin whatever that happen, blame myself for knowing you so well. If im allow to choose again, I WOULDN’T WANT TO KNOW YOU SO WELL. I will shut your mouth before you tell me anything. I guess now it's too late to regret though?

Goodbye my friend, hi stranger.

2011-07-27T23:53:00.002+14:00

Dog is human’s best friend.

Whenever you are happy, they will be there to celebrated with you and play along. Whenever you are sad, they will be there ‘comforting’ you in their own ways. They will always be seating at the door steps looking through the door waiting for you to come home. Jump and wack their small little tail when they see you walking toward home. Hey people, do you see it? Actually a pet dog can really make your day or spoil your day..

Few days back, I received a call from my sister around 7:45am. Said that she found this dog at block 202, and want me to go down to take care of the dog because she’s going to work. Do as what my sister ask me to do, bring the dog to see a doctor. Then bring her home and wait for my sister to come back at home to see what we can do.

When I reach home, I tied the dog in my kitchen, and went back to bed. Im so tired, plus im a lazy bum as all of you know? LOL :DD Lying on my bed thinking, the dog got lost by itself or the owner throw her away? If it’s the dog got lost by itself, will the owner be as worried compared to lydia when she lost her dog few months back? At that point of time when bibi was lost, lydia was really sad and worried. But at last, lucky lydia found bibi back (:

At night of the same day my sister found the dog, missing dog notice was posted all around the estate. It’s the dog that my sister found and ask me to bring her home. Called the owner and return it back. I can see and feel how happy is the owner when she bring her dog back. And how happy is the dog to see her own owner.

My family and I got a dog at home too and her name is feimui.

I remember that time when my sister discuss with my parents to bring her home. My mum totally disagreed to it and said that she hate dog. Because they will drop fur and make the whole house dirty. But at the end of the day, my sister still insisted to bring her home and planned to hide her in our room. Hahahaa, one year plus have passed. Now, my mum kinda of accpeted her. Everyday still ‘talk’ to her, feed her food. My dad loves her since the day she was brought back when she’s young. He will sayang her, play with her. My second brother used to be scraed of dog, especially her! Because she’s very hyper. But now he’s totall okay with her and he love to hug and carry her around the house. Play with her, ‘talk’ to her and all. My big bro used to be against her, whenever she make noise and all he will take the cane and wack her damn hard. Now he’s abit okay though still against. But sometimes he will still tase and take her as a joke.

It’s her 2^nd birthday yesterday. And a celebration was made for her, brought a birthday cake and some snacks. Invited lydia’s dog, bibi and bobby to come over. And our clique of course, like chuanyew, dawn, lydia and marcus :D The whole events was successful, all thanks to all of them!

Anyway this is lydia with her two dogs, bibi and bobby :DD The white and brown one is bibi while the white and black one is bobby. Look at how happy lydia is, LOL. Hmm, actually i forget what's the real reason behind for posting this photo. There's something i wanted to say about it but i really forget what it is alr. Sorry peeps, i got short term memory.. But no matter what, dont you think this photo is very nice?

2011-07-19T18:02:00.000+14:00

It’s just me and my fucking attitude :D

What a reason I got, “but because you are now with us what.” When I hinted about how I feel. I have been thinking about it, to voice out or not. But I don’t manage to give myself a good answer. I cant produce a good reason for myself to voice out, but I know that if I really contiue to be like that. Things will turn out worst then everyone could imgaine at the end of the day.

I don’t know if this is counted as jealous but I also cant think of any other word to really describle how I totally feel. Okay take it as im jealous then. Well, I guess that’s what it all started with bah? I always don’t get why people always says, “jealousy kill”. But now then I come to realised about the answer.

I think I shouldn’t explain further, for I know answer like ‘you think too much’ will be given. If you really know and understand how I feel, you will know what im talking about. If you really cared, you will ask me what happen; why like that? Not trying to hint and ask you to ask and care but just want you to think and respond. Maybe now all I could say and admit are that, maybe is I think too much, maybe is I expected too much, maybe it’s just me.

From the day i started this blog, i have been think what will post #100 be? If a word or a phrase will be given to describe what is it like. Well and this is the #100 post, can anyone tell me the answer?

2011-07-10T05:37:00.000+14:00

Here I am, blogging at this weird timing again! But im just going to make it sweet and short.

Well honestly, it really broke my heart when I see all this.. But there's nothing much i can do i guess?

PS: Well, because im just a useless ass, a loser, a failer. And that’s me, isnt it.

2011-07-09T08:15:00.003+14:00

Here I am blogging at this weird timing where I still have to wake up early in the morning later to work.. I hate working seriously, wake up early in the morning and travel down to report. While working still have to see people’s face. OMG, what’s all this? But at the end of the day, it all still drive down to the point that.

I NEED THE MONEY -.-

I remember clearly that I got one new year resolution, is to saved up to 5k in my bank by the end of this year. Well, look at the amount in my bank now. It’s seems so far away, and maybe it’s impossible now? Sian sian sian!

NO NO, JORINE LEE I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT!

Now come to think of it, actually I have forgotten all my new year resolution except for two! One is to open a birthday chalet with lydia and the another is to save up to 5k by the end of the year. Within this two, im only done with like ONE?! Hais )):

Plus, I still got so many so many more new year resolution that I forgot! OMG~ this is insane! I think I should try squeezing out my brain juice and start thinking what are all my new year resolution and start doing it.

JORINE LEE, STOP PROCASTINATING!!!! ><

Okayokay, I think I remember one of it now. To get a driving licence -.- I have not even touch on it yet. Okay, 5 more months for me to think of all my new year resolution and complete it. Hmm, guess it’s going to be hell for me )):

PS: Going to save some money to get a desktop ASAP! Im sooooo going to download maple and start play with lydia, dawn, chuanyew and marcus )):

2011-07-08T08:40:00.008+14:00

COUNTDOWN! 4 more days to exam..

Wow, I think it have been thousands year since I last blog.. I wonder if there still people reading it. Well, 4 more days to my exam and 6 more days to another exam. But I seem to be too relax -.- should start to really concentrated and study.

HAHAHA, this moron ask me to update my blog and invite her to read.

She’s the one that always say, ‘I don’t know what’s home. I don’t have a family.’ But at the end of the day she’s also the one that tell and taught me what’s family. She’s always the one that give me her words, assure me that I wont fight the fight of life all alone. She make me realised so many things in life that I have always been neglecting. DAWN,THANK YOU. And you stop thinking so much. Don’t believe the things you tell yourself so late night and you are your own worst enermy. You’ll never win the fight. So anything just drop me call, it’s just eight number away! You have my words too :DD

Let me blog about some of my other buddy too (:

Lydia lydia! OMG, I stilll cant believe that you going to moved house. Don’t know if I should be happy or sad about it :X Next time I walk home, need to walk pass the dark dark place with a lot of bangala.. so dangerous! HAHAHA, nevermind if too late or if I lazy walk home I stay your house okay?? Aiyo, don’t even know you will allow not ): Well, I think we have went through quite a lot of think and thin together. I hope all those will build our friendship instead of making it waste yah? Hmm, I got so much more to tell you.. But maybe next time through sms or call bah. Remember this photo, this was the time I ask you to take photo with me! In the end, all ended up you and yong yong taking it! Angry >< next time must take photo with me ah!! :DD HAHAHA

Chuanyew aka crayon. Well, this name is created by dawn and I. Because there’s once, we will thinking of a nick name for him with his name CY. And don’t know why, we came out with this name crayon. But I think he got a lot more nickname like mini tank, daddy and etc.

Chuanyew, xin ku ni le! As what dawn wrote in her blog, you never fails to nag at us like our daddy. Asking us what time we sleep, asking us to sleep early, asking us to take care of ourselves.. I know you nag because you care :DD Thanks for always sending me back home, and sometime bring me out for riding when my mood wasn’t good. Giving me advise on what to do is really much appreciated! I really cant imagine you going into army soon and coming out with botak. Im sooooo going miss you man! Because you have alr been part of my life!

My dear little girl, haahahha time to grow up alr uh!! How old alr, still act like one small little kid. School’s starting soon and i’m sure exam’s coming too. Study haard for your exam and promise me, graduate with a good result yah?? Work hard, study hard and play hard! Don’t only work hard and play hard ah! HAHAHA

2011-01-19T02:07:00.000+14:00

Do i spend money like how people used to go toilet? They used the toilet paper like there nobody business, like there's no ending like toilet paper is FREE! They keep thinking that they need alot and all they do is to keep pulling and pulling and pulling. Okay, go back to the topic. What i meant was do i spend moeny like there's no ending and ended up becoming a spendthrift or it's jst that cause i don get enough money for myself?

Why people out that got so much money while me only got that little and even got nagging for taking that little?

Im always thinking why is there such things like money in the world? why must there be a division of rich and poor? I think, money really have the greatest power in the world. Money can really make someone's life different.

There's so many things that i want to buy and i want to do in life.. And what's the biggest concern? Obvious MONEY!

Now if it's money, im left speechless.

2010-12-14T04:57:00.000+14:00

Who am i to you guys?

To my family,
Dear mummy and daddy, who am i to you? Your precious daughter or just a girl that come and go into the house as and when i like?
Dear brother and sister, who am i to you? Am i someone that you will ever care for as a sister or just another person that appear in your life and related to you and being force to acknowledge it?

To my precious friend,
Dear friend, who am i to you? Am i a good friend or even friend to you or am i a irritating and bastard friend?

Who am i? I myself also don't know what am i thinking and who am i. You guys must think that i am funny or trying to be funny. But whatever that i said is the fact. From the day that i become more sensible till now, i have been wondering who am i. And what I'm suppose to be in the future.

From then till now, i realise that i have been living on my own. Just like i don't have a family and any friends. No one cares, no one ask and no one nag. my life is in black and white, and there's no meaning to it. Everyone want a life like mine, but i just don't get it why. I wanted a life like them! Having their own room and can decide what to do to the room, having sibling that can joke and tell secret to or even have some random chatting session. In their life, there's someone there to cares, someone there to ask and someone that to nag. But this show that the someone worried abut them don't they? Maybe as what people always say, other people things always seems to be better then our own.

There are so many things that i wish for, that i think it's so difficult to achieve.
How i wish i have a better communication with my family.. if so i will have brother and sister that treat me so good, i will have brother and sister that i can share my secret to. I will be able to open my heart all of them.
How i wish i will have a few real friend beside me.. i can treat them as my best friend. but how about them? Because i hope it's a two way thing ):

I think that i have a split personality o.o

Can i ask you guys a question? Does my significant means to all of you, my family and friends?

2010-05-04T02:47:00.001+14:00

Talk to you for the whole of previous night.. Because you are leaving early in the morning..
What can I say?
You are just like a clay, you are able to mould into what I wanted you to be.
You change your character and your personality just because I wanted it to be that way.
You are always there when I need you, and you assure me that. As long as I turn my head, I will be able to see you by my side.
You will comfort me, when I’m sad.
You will lean me your shoulder, when I feel like crying.
You will lend me your listening ear, when I’m frustrated.
You will say, ‘punch me and vain your anger out’, when I’m piss off and angry.
I never ever shared my happiness with you.. You know about that but you didn’t say anything about it.
You seem to be so prefect but yet…
Now as time past by and you tell me that you are going to leave me..
My mind went blank, I don’t know what to say and I don’t know how should I respond.
For the past few years, I have depended on you so much that you have become part of me..
Now you are going to leave.
What am I going to do?

2010-04-17T03:09:00.000+14:00

Hi people!! I’m back..
Well okay, was busy working and settling my school stuff for the past one month. Hmmm, I think this post will be quite a long one cause I got so many things to blog about! But I don’t know where to start from :x

Let’s start from dear’s birthday ah?
Brought dear to eat steamboat at Waraku at ClarkeQuay.. The food is superb nice! HAHAHA (: While eating, dear saw the bungy thingy and she wanted to play!
It’s super expensive lo.. But I still think it worth a try if you dare cause it’s super scary!! I’m scared of height so dear didn’t expect me to take the thing with her.. Alvin didn’t dare to take it too, so in the end all of us didn’t take cause dear cant take the ride alone.
Dear, im so sorry ):
Cabbed down to AMK and watched ‘Remember me’
Then back to serangoon to take her cake and I took out dear’s present. A ring and a red crumpler.. Suppose to have another chalkboard with her photos on top. But the photo was lost/ stolen, so wasn’t able to do it for her. Will give it to you next time okay, dear?

Well, in the past one month I have been reading quite a few blog and people saying that they miss the past. The memories..
Hmmm, come to think of it.. I miss the past too!
I miss the time when I’m in primary school.. The few really good friends that I had. No matter what happen to you, they will always be there.
I miss the time when I play basketball with my team.. The sweat, blood and tears that we shed for basketball, our common goal?
I miss my secondary one and two class.. I had a really good form teacher name, Mr. roger chia. And the clique that I hanged out with, they are awesome!
I miss the days that I went for volleyball training.. I got to learn a new skill and volleyball is quite fun!
I miss the first day of upper sec, because I got to see all my guy friend get to wear a long pant! And some look really funny and weird!! HAHAHA (:
I miss my secondary three and four class.. For always nagging and whining at teacher for delaying the lesson or wanting us to stay back..
Bullying Mr. fahmy for his belly! Not only him but also Miss leow and mr choo..
Watching show like TCL’s bag being locked together with the table, being punch by Ben, being ask to shut up in class, being blame and bully for posting a photo on stomp.
And this was where he got his nickname, STOMPER TCL.
I miss going recess and studying with the other 10 girls.. Going prom with the other 9 girls..
Lastly, I miss going KTV with adryan, glen, sean, carlvin, yong yong, Lydia, fahmy and fred.
But all this had past and it have become memories.

Well, actually I wanted to blog about my work too. But it seems to be all the bad stuff. Shall not spoil the mood of this post..So I will blog about my work another day okay?? HAHAHA (:

2010-03-09T02:47:00.000+14:00

Maybe as what you always say.. People don’t understand you, and so do I.I don’t mean to quarrel with you and I don’t mean to make you feel that way.. Though I didn’t really make myself clear that time, but I have told you in sms. There are much more things that I want to say and tell you.. But it’s too long and confidential to mention it here. Let’s seat down and talk about it again another day okay?? I know you understand and you know.. Let’s just treat it as an incident that happen that build our friendship, can? After that incident, I finally know and understand how you feel and what you think about.. No matter you treat me as a friend, best friend or what so ever.. No matter this sentence matter to you a not but I just want to tell you this. I promise I wun do all this again, okay? Because now, I have really learn my lesson..

2010-03-08T23:35:00.001+14:00

In this special occasion, some people do remember and some don’t.. I will never forget about it.. But for people like my parents, they actually don’t.

Just a few words for those who remember it.. Thanks for remembering this special occasion and celebrate with me. Thanks for the present!! It’s really nice and sweet. Alvin and dear, Remember me telling you guys I ‘m going to cry? I’m serious about it.. LOL (:

Lastly, a few more words to say..

1) Alvin Tan

Hey Alvin, I know you through her.. Mmmm, don’t know it’s a good thing or bad thing but I’m glad to know you and still friend with you till now. Thanks for always accompany me when I’m down.. Thanks for being my listening ear all the time.. Well, You have done so much.. THANK YOU!

2) Ernest Tan

Hey Ernest! I know you through her too. As in a different “her”.. Mmmm, same goes to you.. Don’t know if it’s a good thing or bad thing but I’m glad to know you and still friend with you till now. Though I don’t really know you well, as in very well? But you accompany me, lending me a listening ear, giving me advice and sometimes comforting me. THANKS SO MUCH!

3) Lydia Chua

Hey my dear! I know you since sec 1 but we are not close at all till last year-end. You are a great friend and im really really honoured to be your friend. You never failed to show me your cared.. When I was at my lowest point of time, you not only accompany me, you were there to pull me up. When I was trouble, you were there to lend me a shoulder or a listening ear. We quarrel and I think that’s a good sign.. Because that means we are able to know and understand each other better! Lydia, really thank you for every single things.. You thought me how beautiful this world is. You gave me hope when I was about to give up on everything. Thanks you, my friend! You are more than what I ever need.. You matter!

2010-02-12T14:58:00.000+14:00

THOUGHTS...

2010-01-31T01:20:00.001+14:00

Today’s mood was okay, I guess.. But why does it start when the day is going to end?? I thought today will be a good day and also the only day that I didn’t have mood swing but why this happen in the end?!

I realized that the time that my body start work is when I start reflecting upon the day and think about my life. It some how just become a alarm clock in my body.. And whenever it reached 11, everything starts. Start thinking and reflecting about the whole day, start thinking why things happen this way and not the other way round. This is when my mind goes wild and this is also when my emotions totally took over me. I can be crying the whole night or I can be seated there looking at my blood dripping.

Do you really understand how I feel?? Can I really tell you everything?? Well, you got to know this.. It’s not because I don’t trust you.. But so what if I tell you? What can you do about it? Believe and trust me, there is nothing much you can do because it me. It’s all about me.. I CAUSE ALL THIS TO HAPPEN. I don’t wish to irritate you with my problem because I know I have bring you lots of trouble. I don’t wish to be Friend A or Friend B that keep irritating you and pissing you off. I know you cared and that’s why the more I don’t wish to bring you so much trouble.. Do you know what im thinking about right now?

Maybe it’s time, the time for me to move on without you. So I wun bring you trouble.. I wun make you worried.. I wun make you angry.. I wun make you irritated.. I can’t bring you happiness and so the most I can do is to make on in my life.

but how am i going to move on without you in my life?!

2010-01-30T05:39:00.001+14:00

I don’t know it is because of me having that so I have been having mood swing all along.. Or maybe im just like that with the crappy character and trying to find a reason for myself to be like that..

Every single night while I was reflecting upon the day, I always find myself so irritating by doing all the stupid thing that I shouldn’t have done. And after doing it, I apologized. But what does the word “sorry” really means? And I kept asking myself that does it really come from my heart?? What for saying sorry when it does not come from my heart.. And me saying sorry just for the sick of saying sorry?

Trying very hard not to be angry.. Trying very hard not to be easily irritated.. Trying very hard not to be moody.. Trying very hard not to be sad.. Trying very hard not to be emo. TRYING SO SO SO HARD TO BE HAPPY. I have been trying very hard but why am I just like that?

Should I even comments or just keep my mouth shut? What should I do and who can I tell? I need someone there to accompany me, I need someone that to lend me a listening ear and I need someone there to lend me a shoulder.. I NEED SOMEONE THERE! Who can be the someone?

Sitting on my bed, tearing.. when will it stop? i dont know..

2010-01-18T02:41:00.000+14:00

Dear friend,

On one particular night while I was reflecting about my life.. I also started thinking and reflecting upon our friendship.. I realized that I have been creating lots of trouble and problem to you. And it’s all because of me.

If not because of me, you will be happily with your clique..
If not because of me, we would be counting how many people woo you.
If not because of me, you would not know Friend A and Friend B. If Friend A and Friend B don’t get to know you, they wun like you. If they don’t like you, there will not be so much trouble.
If you don’t know Friend A and Friend B, Friend C wun be like that..
If all this doesn’t happen, you wun feel so piss off and fuck up.
When you are so piss off and fuck up by the things around, I saw the slight smile on your face while talking to Friend D on the phone. He told me something and I know that he’s just joking.. But at this point of time, thinking back what he said.. I got the urge to do so. Not because of his stupid reason but the reason that I have for myself that why should I leave you.
In the first place, we shouldn’t be so close.. If we weren’t close, all this wun happen. And most importantly, I still can stand at the side looking at your smile. Feeling so heart warming in my heart, because I believe if you love someone, as long as they are happy, you will be happy..

Love, Jorine lee

2010-01-10T01:11:00.000+14:00

OH MY GOSH!! I have not been blogging for so so so long already.. Mmmm, there were quite a lot for me to update bah. Have been out to work and also out with friend to play and enjoy our long long long holiday.. HAHAHA (:

On Christmas, went out with glen, Keith, adryan, binod, Lydia and fahmy came along too.. Went to play pool and had our lunch at bishan. At night went to Pasir Ris Park to open our “mini concert” again. But now much bigger cause of glen and Keith.. Later in the night, Lydia and I cab down to paya lebar to my church to COUNTDOWN for Christmas then glen and Keith cab home. For some reason cause I didn’t attend church for quite long already, when I first step in I feel so weird. I didn’t dare to do what I used to do in church and I become very disciplined. I, myself also don’t know why but it’s quite fun though..

Then one of the days, adryan, glen, Benjamin, Alvin and I went to play bowling and pool. This was the day Alvin and Benjamin met Lydia and adryan.. Mmmm, at first when they saw each other they totally didn’t talk to each other. Im just like the ham between two bread (Ernest’s line).. So what I did was walking in between two clique using my phone and entertaining myself.. HAHAHA (: until dinner than they started to talk to each other.. dots -.-

And once Alvin, Benjamin and Lydia came over to my house to slack. They brought like lots of food over.. Next day, went over to Lydia’s house.. We stayed over to COUNTDOWN for NEW YEAR. Alvin, Benjamin, Marcus and Lydia drank vodka but I never.. Good girl huh? LOL (: they all got super drunk and we started pranked calling then Lydia locked Alvin, Benjamin and Marcus outside the house.. WE HAD SO SO SO MUCH FUN!! Than next morning when to fetch Ernest to Lydia’s house. This is when Lydia and Marcus got to know Ernest. We chatted, had some story telling session.. Telling each other what we experience in life and so on. Had our dinner with Lydia’s family and went back to the room to chatted again till 10 plus and back home.

The next few days, we had been going out together too.. When for some shopping, had some coffee at orchard center had our talked there. We have done so many things together.. HAHAHA (: and I really enjoyed myself. Oh oh! And that time we went for Ngee Ann open house together!! We have so much fun there.. Just hope and wish that I could go in Ngee Ann! HAHAHA (: my dream school sia..

Well well, okay. I shall end here. Anyway, LYDIA here this the post you wan okay??? HAHAHA (: night everyone!

2009-12-24T00:03:00.000+14:00

HAHAHA (: Today when to meet glen, adryan and Lydia and we went out.. Actually we are suppose to go play pool but in the end with glen’s great idea.. We ended up in escape theme park.. the place where promise not to step in again when im in primary 3 but I broke my promise today.. LOL

I pay 7.50 and only play like 3 games inside?? Cause I scared of height ah, so don’t really dare to play some of the games -.- Anyway, Lydia, im going to blog about you uh?? Im just joking!! LOL (: And I take back my word, YOU ARE STILL MY BEST FRIEND OKAY? HAHAHA (:

By the way, sorry guys!! Pangseh you all to go and play the other 2 games.. Im really sorry uh? I really scared ah!! I feel that im damn lousy as a friend and I really feel very bad. Like im spoiling all the fun all that.. SORRY!!

Went for dinner and to the beach.. Glen went home and Shafiq came.. He’s damn funny. LOL (: Whoa, I really enjoy the wind and the sight there.. it’s damn nice!! Relax, enjoy and have lots of fun.. While waiting for Shafiq.. Lydia, adryan and I have a “mini concert” LOL (: then went home around 9 plus..

Ohh ohh, forget to mention that I went to watch new moon few few days ago.. HAHAHA (: With Carlvin, Sean, Lydia, Adryan, Glen and his girl. Then went for an underground gig concert few days ago? Don’t know if it’s concert but ya.. This was when I got to know more friends like Shafiq (valentine), Shafiq (care bear), Adryan, Glen, Mamat, Marten and Lydia. Yup yup!! They are really nice and cool friend! And im glad to know them.. Hee hee (:

Mmmm, still got what to update lei?? Actually, there’s a lot more la.. But I forget :X HAHAHA (: Next post bah.. Well, im tired and it’s time for me to get some rest now.. BYE EVERYONE!! (:

PS: Christmas is in 23 hours 57 minutes time!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-24T00:22:00.002+14:00

Well well well.. It have been a week after ‘o’ level.. And everyone is searching for job!! Hahaha, my mom have been hinting me to get a job..
Mmmm honestly, I got her hint.. But still, I act blur!
Well, just let me enjoy for a while more, and I will really go find a job..

Have been wanting to blog for like super long already but just dont know where to start..
There are so many things happen around, like prom and council farewell.. This are some of the big events.. While others small events like bbq with the girls in my class, picnic at marina barrage, going out to slack with my friends and lastly movie!!!
Yup, and I believe there are more coming..
Now, my life seem to be full of plans and activities..

Let’s talk about my prom night..
Well, prom was exciting man!! The activities, dance floor, photo taking.. Just make everyone of us go CRAZY!! I was going around taking photos with people.. Cause we might not ever meet again. Don’t you agree with me? HAHAHA (:
Went to kbox after prom.. We really have fun and enjoy ourselves there, right guys??

Next, will be my council farewell..
WELL DONE TO ALL THE JUNIORS!! You guys really did a great job huh? Continue your secondary school life in council and I bet you guys will learn a lot of things and also grow stronger as a person through all the camps and hardships.. As for the emotional part, I dont think I will talk about it here?? If you know, so you do.. If you dont, don’t be a kpo than.. LOL (:

Mmmm, whats more?? Oh, have been going on diet this few days. Got to slim down already.. Otherwise after this few months of holiday, I will definitely grow FAT! And I will look like some fatty bum bum in poly.. I THAN DON’T WANT LOOOO!!!! Well, while saying poly.. Im super scared for the result can. But whatever is done is done.. Nothing going to change the result right??

Have been going out with friend this few days.. Honestly, I feel that my circle of friend is getting bigger and bigger.. Maybe its because, I shall not state the reason here. But yup, I believe its part of the reason why my circle of friend is getting bigger bah.. Really enjoy going out with them.. There is always fun and laughter around them. Sometimes you can even laugh till you got stomachache.. That’s how powerful they are! Friends, you guys are really amazing man!!

Woah! This post seem to be very long.. Maybe cause too long never blog le bah. Yup yup! Actually, I got more to blog la.. But, maybe the next post?? This post is really long.. If I continue blogging.. I bet you guys are going to die reading it.. HAHAHA (:

Okayokay, I’m going to chat with my friend on msn already. If you want to talk to me, you can find me online.. If it’s more personal, you can call me!! LOL (:
Bye bye!! (:

2009-10-25T15:15:00.000+14:00

HAHAHA!! Another thousand years since I last blog about my life.. Mmmm, where shall I start then?? Okay, I think I shall start from my studies..

Thinking back, when I first got enroll into a kindergarden.. Have been studying for the past 14 years and the day im waiting for finally come, the “o” levels!! Yes, tmr is my first “o” level paper, which is English. Hmmm, I know that it must be super weird for me to say this but I kind of excited for it!! I don’t know why.. LOL (:

Well, I cant say that im 100 percent confidence but no matter what I still got to take the paper right?! After these three weeks of battle between the papers, and me.. I will be FREE!! And I think I will be dry dead after these three week.. All my brain cells and energy will be used up.
Lastly, can I tell you all something?? My dog is super cute!! Everyone like her, I cant deny that.. But all because she is too cute!! No one can resist to say that she not.. LOL (: she is right behind me now.. and she is sleeping! Will be uploading some of her photo in facebook BUT after my “o”s.. you guys should know, uploading of photo is crazy. It need super long.. I got no time!! Now having “o” levels, my time spent on com is estimated 0. Cause I already got not enough time to revise. THAT MY LIFE!!

2009-10-12T18:12:00.002+14:00

Oh gosh, it has been years since I last blog!! Kind of like controlling myself not to use com and watch TV.. Sacrificing all the things, so that I would study and score well of my ‘o’s.. Oh man, 14 more days to ‘o’ level first paper.. STRESS STRESS AND STRESS! :/

My school had graduation night on the 2nd of October..
I FINALLY GRADUATE FROM SECONDARY SCHOOL!!
I manage to pull through it without crying. Know why I say so?? Cause all the Video and message from teachers are all so touching.. Looking back at the four years in Peicai, there is fun, tears, blood and sweat..
Doing all the random and crazy stuff with all my friends through out the four years, crying over my poor examination result from sec 1 to 3 (sec 4, im numb to it..), injuries and sweat from all the volleyball training.
All these memories are all implanted in my mind..

After graduation, I realized that school is not that bad after all..
As what people say, you will only start to miss the things you are doing when you are not doing it for a long time..
I kind of miss the teachers nagging, forcing myself to wake up early in the morning to go school and studying in a classroom.
All this is what you will never ever get it again after you graduation from secondary school.

HAHAHA.. But as what I always say, life still goes on!!! Okayokay got to start studying already!! Oh, anyway graduation night photo are all in my facebook! If you are intersted go and see okay?? Bye bye~

2009-09-18T00:47:00.000+14:00

Today is the last day of my prelim!! ‘O’level in around 1 month time.. Some people don’t want to face the reality and don’t wish to count down.. But I do!! Hmmm, it’s not because im prepare for it but cause I cant wait for the end of ‘o’level!! That will be the real freedom!! Hahaha (:

Today is Jason’s birthday.. He is a good friend of mine seriously!! Even if he doesn’t treat me as his good friend I will still treat him as mine. he is always there when ever need help and sometimes he even voluntary to help me!! He’s really good, though we always “bully” each other!! Hahaha (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON!! (:

Have you ever seen someone living a life full of happiness and things always go according to what they want.. But yet they keep complaining and compare their life to other who lives better than them? AND Have you ever seen someone living a life full of difficulties, obstacle and always went through a tough time?? But yet they live their life to the fullest, always wearing a smile on their faces and live like as if their life was the best on earth.

Sometimes I wonder why the second group of people is not like the first group of people. And I wonder how they did it..
Sometimes I do hope that life is not like that, really..

But what ever it is now.. Life still goes on. The world won’t stop rotating just because of you. You got to understand that you must accept the fact and this cant be change. Hais.. Just being too emotional by seeing things happening around and being too emotion led. It’s time to go back to reality and be spirit led!! Hahaha.. I control my emotion but not emotion control me.. Hee hee (:

Okay okay.. Got to go and go something already!! Hahaha (:
Nights nights!! (:

2009-09-13T02:37:00.000+14:00

Woa woa!! Very long never blog le.. My blog is like dying! Okay okay, I shall start sharing with you guys how’s my life this few days..

Hmmm, let start of with this bah. Today is yong kang’s birthday!! (: If you know him and have his number.. go and grab your phone and text him now! Hahaha (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONG KANG!! (:

Yesterday’s service with Pastor Kevin was great!! Pastor is so funny but yet inspiring!! Cant wait for today’s services with him again.. It’s going to be exciting and powerful man!! Im going to buy all of his book today after service.. Hahaha (:

Prelim have been going on and Im really really worried for my it.. My result and etc. I just can’t stop think about it! Im so stress and pressure now.. Just got so tired of studying!!

I have been losing my faith day by day.. Seriously, I need to find my faith back and keep it inside of me! Flea and how teng prayed for me today.. The pressure of god was there, really! I can feel the peace inside of me. Flea was like asking me to remember that that’s the presence of god and the peace. Now I feel much better and more faith filled.. Thanks flea and how teng!!! Hahaha (:

While posting, I Was chatting with my mum about signing a new plan and buy a new phone.. We talk about it for a while and she also tell me about her work and everything. And I realised that actually she have been working so hard and doing a lot for this family!! Just to support the family and share the burden with my dad. Im speechless, I really don’t know what to say…

Hais, never mind! Got to go and sleep le. Nights guys! (:

2009-09-01T14:30:00.000+14:00

Celebrated HOGC 10th anniversary last Saturday!! And also Pastor How’s birthday celebration.. All the video made for the celebration of HOGC 10th anniversary. All the performance and video for pastor how’s birthday are so amazing and funny! I really enjoy myself..

I see how the church works, I see how the ops works.. people giving their best to make sure that everything was all right and everything run smoothly..

Attendance broke through.. 1818! It’s so so so amazing isn’t it??
The people: Adult leaders, youth leaders, staff n members are all world class.
The journey: continues...
10th anniversary, Youth-1307, Adults-308!
Imagine with me, our attendance for 20th anniversary!!! Hahaha (:
Everything is just so powerful..

Prelim is officially starting tmr!! And my first paper is physics and mathematics paper 1..

I’m going to conquer it no matter how hard it is.. Life revolves around tests and exams just made me feel like im dying. But I’m going to continue fighting.. Fight till the end of the war.. Im going to win the war and glorified god!

Got to go back and study now.. For people who are also having exam, jia you and let fight this war together! We can do it, as long as there is faith inside of you..

2009-08-20T11:36:00.000+14:00

Hahaha (: English ‘o’ level oral is over!! I do hope it pull my grades up.. examiners was smiling, I hope it's for good. I got to really do well for my English man!! Or maybe I should say I got to do well for my ‘o’ level man!! Hahaha (: Mr. Fahmy, my form teacher, said that my group done well!! hahaha, team 288 well done!! Jia yous for English paper 1 and paper2..

MOVIE MARATHON, BMI and CG tmr!! It’s going to be exciting man.. Im looking forward for it.. The twins, Wei qi and Wei yi are both coming for BMI! Can’t wait to see them tmr, cleaning up the church and serving god together with all of us.

I really need to WAKE UP and FACE REALITY now.. I always thought that I was but now then I realize im not..
I always thought that the person is real and I trusted the person for so long but yet… I don’t know what more can I say and I don’t know what I can do.
It’s really time to wake up and faced the world.. I should stop procrastinating and stop trusting the person from today onwards.

Ps: You are the person that I trusted, you are the one that cheer me on, you are the one that support me.. I just can’t believe that you are that kind of person. What the different between you and the other people?? Now I know and I regretted trusting you. I was speechless when I found out that you are like that. But I just want to thank you for once being my friend.

2009-08-19T23:57:00.000+14:00

Secondary 4E, 4F, 4G, 4H, 5A and 5B please process to hall 2 at 11:10 am to collect the GCE ‘o’ level Chinese result..

I received my ‘o’ level Chinese result today and I don’t know I should be happy or sad..
I should feel happy because my Chinese results in sec 3 and 4 wasn’t good and I scored quite well for ‘o’ level..
OR
I should feel sad because I expect myself to score better that that?!

I can describe the whole process of how I feel when I in the hall getting my result..
When we were all seated in the hall, I felt alright.. Than slowly I feel more and more nervous. When it’s my turn to go up and collect the result, I felt so scared and not dared to face the fact. But still, I walked toward my teacher..
While standing there, I peeked into my class Chinese result slip and I get a shocked of my life when I saw D7 and ungraded.
For a moment, I thought that’s my result.. My Chinese teacher than look at me and say, “relax, bu yao zhe mo jin zhang.” She slides a piece of blank paper on top of the result slide acted as a ruler and write down my scored on a form to inform our parents about our grades.

She wrote down a 3 on my letter, look up at me and say, “ammm, hen hao!” I looked down at my paper and she wrote DISTINCTION for my paper 3!!! Oh my gosh.. I can feel that the burden in my heart was lighten..

I got B3 and distinction for paper 3 for my GCE ‘o’ level Chinese..
I expect myself to do better but I never.. I asked my teacher should I retake, she say that I can give it a try cause B3, distinction stands a chance to get ‘A’. But got to really put in effort..
I feel like retaking but im worried for other subject.. How?? I think I will ask my parents and sibling comments and think about it.. hais ):

So disappointed with myself!!!!

2009-08-15T23:57:00.000+14:00

Pastor how preach about having a bigger heart this weekend.. God don’t look at anything else but our heart. Our heart must be bigger than the vision. We got to grow and have a bigger heart.
There are 6 areas where god search our hearts, he test our heart and our mind..
1. Master
2. Mission
3. Mate
4. Morals
5. Money
6. Mercy

Service is really good and let me tell you a secret okay?? Hahaha (: pastor how are not in Singapore!! Are you guessing about how he preaches the word of god to us?? Pastor went the extra mile because of the church, he recorded down his sermon before he flew to gold coast! Pastor was just so amazing and cools ya?? I really really love Pastors.. The way they do things for us, love us, teach us and guide us through our journey in life.

Today was Jason see first usher duty.. I bet now he know that usher really play a important part in church and how tired and hungry we are after service or maybe be even before service. But yet we give all our best to served the people.. Hahaha (: but though it’s tiring and so, ushering is really fun and exciting!!

Flea asked Jason see to make a card for me just to cheer me on and support me through this period of time.. The card was really nice and I love it! (:
As what flea wrote in her blog, you got to see it for yourself when I received the card.
It was a priceless emotion.. im really touched by the things that the cg have done for me!

Thanks you guys!!

2009-08-14T00:10:00.000+14:00

Things don’t really turn out well in my life now a days and I admit I really got affected by it. Have been busy this few days trying to settle things happen around me and make things go back to normal.

Felicia and Melissa came down to my house to visit and surprised me.. This is the first time I meet them in 2 weeks. They brought three apples for me. I know that they really care and love me.
By their action I can see, going the extra mile just to meet and surprise me with three apples. That’s really incredible isn’t it??
Thanks flea and Melissa for coming all the way down.. Love you guys!! (:

It’s already 10 passed 12.. And today is shu huey and sharlene’s birthday! Let’s all wish them a happy birthday before we go to bed okay??

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHU HUEY!! (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARLENE!! (:

2009-08-02T01:34:00.000+14:00

Life has been great and exciting and everything is moving at the speed of the light. Festival of Praise is going on right now.. Tonight is the last night!
If you haven't been to one, hurry go down to Singapore Indoor Stadium tonight. Otherwise you will miss it all!!

Pastor How preached a really powerful sermon at combined service last night. Atmosphere was really great with Pastor Lia worship leading.
One church, two pastor, combine service, double anointing!! Hahaha (:
it is so amazing how our church works..

Festival of Praise on Friday was just as cool. Opening video done by our own Post-Pro team; special stop motion video proclaiming to the whole nation a message of 'Let no one despise your youth' done by our super professional, under 22yrs old team of youths; Pastor How and Pastor Lia sharing on stage.. Everything is just so amazing!
Ushering was fun and I enjoy it though it super tiring. God give me a vision while im ushering for FOP.
So sudden but yet so clear, I will never forget and I will run with he vision. Let no one despise your youth and I believe the vision that god give me will come to pass. Hahaha (:

Went to church today and had a sharing session with Jamie.. Jamie shared about “my role in the connect group”. After listening to what Jamie said, I made a decision in my heart.
IT’S OUR CHOICE AND OUR DECISION!!
If you never come for the sharing session, you totally miss it man! I feel for yoou…

well, I need to get going to start my revision!
Prelim is coming and im counting down!! Don’t know I should be happy or sad because that means that ‘o’ level is coming too.
Oh my gosh….

2009-07-27T01:11:00.000+14:00

First, don’t lose heart
Second, don’t lose purity
Third, don’t lose focus

In Ephesians, the bible talks about Paul and his story. Paul went through a tough time but he didn’t give up. Paul stands up and has strength inside of him.

Pastor Lia preach about STAND on sat and sun services.. Listening the second time of the same sermon does not make the sermon boring but it allow us to understand better and get more revelation.

I bet our church was the first church which starts LIVE TWITTERING in service. It’s super exciting and cool.. Want to know how was it like?? Come my church and check it out man! I bet it’s going to blown you away!! Hahaha (:

Pastor how will be back next week and he will be preaching for service.. While pastor lia will be on worship team! It’s going to be exciting man, you can’t miss it! So see you guys next week, hahaha (:

2009-07-24T23:47:00.000+14:00

Today’s cg was supper funny!! My room was so small that everyone of us got to like squeeze together.. I felt so sorry for that! But I think everything was okay..

Today’s cg is one of the most important one, according to flea. Have been studying for the whole day and im feel so dry inside and cg just makes me felt more refresh and awake! The feeling inside is really different after cg.. Worship, worship and worship! I just felt so good, im more refresh, awake and my burden seem to be lighter. Hahaha (:

Presence of god was there so strong in my room.. I believe that god is going to do something to my family from today onwards! (: holy spirit starts to touch and melt their heart now, NOW!!

Okayokay, im going to study now.. Bye!!

2009-07-23T12:54:00.000+14:00

Went to meet Felicia, Gordon and Reginald at tampines one. Though I always said that im have a good direction sense but this time I got lost. I can’t even find the Chinese restaurant in tampines one. Oh, maybe I should say.. I can’t even go to the correct tampines one!

Hahaha (: chatted with Gordon, Reginald and Felicia.. we have a great time there in the restaurant. The restaurant look like a good place to study!! Hahaha (: Gordon is always “bullying” Reginald!! You will find out why, if you know them and talk to them.

Walked around tampines one and flea saw a very nice shirt in vonge.. it cost 22 bucks. At first, she feels that it’s very ex and decided not to buy but when we left, she then some how change her mind. aiyooo..

Went to parkway parade with flea cause she wanted to collect the things that she buys from blogshop from the owner. But in the end, something happen. It’s so irritating and I don’t want to talk about it. Then went to bugis to meet Mel..

Im not going to school tmr!! And im going to study the whole day man.. Then cg! I can’t wait for cg man, it’s going to be in my house!! I believe that the presence of god will be so strong.. When my parents and sibling come back the Holy Spirit will be there and start to work in their heart. God is going to do something to my family from tmr onwards man! Im so happy.. Looking forward for cg tmr and im going to study now.. Hahaha (:

2009-07-19T02:53:00.000+14:00

Hahaha!! (: bro’s birthday celebration was cool and amazing! (: got to know one or two of his friends! Hahaha (: im like running here and there.. trying to help up in every single areas..

Was talking to cousin and she say that my blog is dying!! So I decided to post a few posts! Hahaha (: no only bro’s having his birthday party at Costa sand, his friend also held his birthday party there.. and the best part of all was that their chalet was beside each other!! Isn’t it cool?!

Sis and her friends also planned to hold a birthday party for their friend, Sarah. They are going to trick her down to pasir ris and surprise her with it!! Hahaha (: how I wish I got friends like this.. they will always be beside each other and surprise each other with things unexpected. Who will ever do that to me? Helping me to hold a birthday party and surprise me? Who will be always there for me, even if I didn’t say anything but yet they will know what im thinking about?? Hah!

As my bro one was costa sand pasir ris and my sis’s friend one was in costa sand downtown east.. I took a few minute to walk over there. Went over to Sarah’s birthday party and join in the fun for a while. It’s so exciting!! They play bbq, take photo and everything. The whole party was just so enjoyable!! (:

Hahaha! (: now is already passed mid night.. I shall end here, good night and bye!

-The end-

2009-07-16T22:34:00.000+14:00

Went to meet flea and the dream team for a meeting in amk on Monday.. Dzone broke through 300!! It’s so amazing isn’t it? Meeting was kind of more relaxing compared to the past few meeting. This one was more of thinking and cracking your brain for ideas.

Supplementary class and tuition after school everyday.. This is not going to be fun for the next three months. School ended at around 5 plus 6 everyday, I can’t stand it anymore! Just times just got the feeling of poning all the supplementary class but I know, I cant! Well, I will suffer now and enjoy later! (:

Movie outing with flea, Nicholas tan, Jason and yong kang! Hahaha (: went to watch harry potter, and the movie was hmmm…. Hahaha (: just to guess it yourself. I give you guys a big hint!! Lols..
Dinner and went home! I’m going to study now.. Bye! (:

2009-07-06T12:41:00.000+14:00

Today is Jerome birthday.. We planned to go down to Ngee Ann to surprise him and celebrating his birthday!
Thought that I will be late, but then I was the first to reach, follow by Mel. While waiting for Eunice, I decided to meet my cousin when she’s having her break! Went to makan place to meet her.. Chatted with her for like a few minutes and went to meet Mel and Eunice to surprise Jerome.

Wrote birthday wishes on his birthday card and went to buy cake for him at four leaves.. Called Melvin to trick Jerome down! Hahaha (: while walking toward block 31, where he study [I guess], Jerome and Melvin walk passed us. This was the best part cause we have not light the candle and everything.. But in the end we somehow manage to trick him to look away so we can light the candle. HAHAHA (:

Everything was fine, chatted with him and Melvin for a while and off we go to AMK to have meet Felicia for a meeting!! Everything was so exciting!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEROME!! (:

2009-07-01T12:49:00.000+14:00

Movie outing was being change to study outing.. And Eunice wants me to teach her physics. Melissa came to join us after a while.

Study outing was not productive enough!! I some how feel that our study outing become some eating outing.. Hahaha!! (:
We ordered lots of food and the best part was Mel treat Eunice and me, ice cream!! Cool (:

How teng come to joined us around 5 plus and I left.. Hahaha (: actually planned to follow my parents to my brother’s commando POP. But they left without me ):

Met Jason, yong kang and Felicia in church.. Had our lunch at Arnolds and went to play L4D. Oh my gosh, im so lousy in that can!! I officially announce, im not good in playing computer games!! Hahaha (:

Watch movie with some of the ceg people and went home quite late.. so triring man!!
Nights everyone! (: Btw,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUAN CHENG!! (:

2009-06-29T12:54:00.000+14:00

First day of school was fine..
This term timetables rocks.. We end school super early!! Excluding remedial.. Hah!

Started this week with an awesome day.. Had meeting with D13 dream team (:
STRENGTH!!

Talk about each and every single lives in our connect group.. From new friend to integration, from integration to regular..
After meeting, how teng, Eunice, Melissa and me went to the library and planned for outings.. Felicia rush off to another meeting.
Hahaha! (: Everything is going to be so so so exciting!! I’m prepare and looking forward for it..

JESUS IS THE ONLY SOLUTION!!

2009-06-28T01:27:00.001+14:00

Went down to bugis to meet shermaine.. Planned to buy Noni, Cherie and yilin’s birthday presents. Later Shan yong joined us!! He is person that paid for everything.. Hahaha (:

Over the phone, we told noni that we celebrating Cherie and yilin’s birthday and we told Cherie that we celebrating noni’s birthday.. So win-win situation luh!! Lol (: we brought ‘guess’ wallet for Cherie and yilin. As for noni, we brought him a shirt, a belt and a shoes. WOW!!

Cab down to church for service.. Yesterday and today’s service is with pastor joakim!! (: session 1, session 2 and session 3 and as what everyone say session 3 is the most mind-blowing and touching!! Pastor shared with us story of titanic and M/S empress of Ireland. Titanic took 3 hours and 14 minutes to be totally sunk into the sea and there is a man that left his 3 year old daughter on the first live boat and said that he will see her later. He went back in to the ship, risking his live just to save the people that are still in the ship. Even when he know that he was going to die, he still shouted ‘believed in Jesus, and you will be saved’. WOW, it’s so so so powerful.

Story of M/S empress of Ireland, the ship took 40 minutes to sink. A 17 years old girl swim toward a 38 years old man, twice her age.. She took out her life jacket and throws it toward the man, Asking the man to wear it so he will be saved.. The man thrown back to her, telling her to wear it because she’s still young and she don’t worth dying. But the girl throw it back to the man and shouted, ‘I die better than you die’.

The girl know that the man was not saved, she know that if she die she will follow Jesus to heaven and have eternity life but the man will not cause he was not save. At that incident, there was a group of teenage taking out their life jacket and throw it to the unsaved people. After the incident, people that found out that they were a youth group.

When the ships started to sunk and the bell ring.. I bet they already made the decision that they are going to give out their lives for OTHERS. After a while, the bell was sell on the internet and pastor decided to brought it. When it was sent to pastor’s house, when pastor took it up on his hand.. God spoke to him and said that the bell is going to be heart of god church bell and in the end pastor joakim gave the bell to pastor how and pastor lia. At the end of the service, they presented the bell to the whole church.

Service was really powerful!! Other than this, I don’t know what can I say about service any more.. hahaha!! (:

2009-06-27T23:54:00.001+14:00

Hahaha!! As what everyone say and what I have experience in the past.. Service with pastor Lia is always awesome!! (:

Service with pastor Lia last week and it’s super powerful. Pastor preaches about STAND. Stand in time of difficulties..
And in times of difficulties, we must not lose heart, don’t lose purity and don’t lose focus..
Service is just so great (:

Meeting with D13 dream team.. Today we did not talk and ran through the integration name.

But we this week’s meeting we went back to grind. Have a worship session and all of us just run back to god. Just simply love the presence of god and the feeling of going back to him! (: Hahaha

After talking so much about church, let’s talk about school!! There are so many mock tests this week and im totally not prepare! Oh my gosh.. How?! Hahaha (: I think I should go and study now luh?? Dots -.-

This week is going to be awesome! (:

2009-06-27T23:54:00.000+14:00

2009-06-27T20:54:00.000+14:00

2009-06-25T01:03:00.000+14:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERIE!! (:

Went down to church to do BM with the usher.. All of us were given job to do and im going to pack the usher cupboard with some of the others usher!! This was really a great chance for me to know the SL and chief usher more!!

Went for dinner at Just Asia.. Really have lots of fun there. We are like a crazy bunch of people there, playing games and laughing out loud.. Hahaha (: I felt more connected in usher ministry now.. Thought I will be take down cause of my ‘o’ level but when I come back, I will be back with my full force!!

Plus plus, we took lots of photo there! You guys can go and take a look.. Cause I think if I upload to my post.. My post will be flooded be photos. Dots -.- you can find all the photo in miaow guan’s face book photo!! Hahaha..

I REALLY ENJOY MYSELF!! (:

2009-06-23T12:47:00.002+14:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICE!! (:

Force myself to wake up early in the morning and went for meeting with Felicia, how teng, Eunice and Melissa. Guess what?! When I reach bishan, how teng and Melissa told me that the meeting time was change. Oh my gosh!!! They are kidding me, but in the end it’s the fact.

The 4 hours of meeting is super good.. And of course at the end of the day, we learnt a lot form Felicia!! Even the smallest things like planning for outing is not as simple as you thought. Got to know what you are going to do and the objective behind it. it’s not just an outing but it must be an fun and meaningful outing.. Not just chiong for outing but plan it well and make it successful.

Yup yup!! That’s all.. All outing starts tmr and im super exciting for it!! Kbox with flea, Mel, Jerome and nic tan!! It’s going to be exciting but more than that to build a stronger relationship with them, amen!

2009-06-20T13:37:00.004+14:00

Life has been great and it can never be greater! (:

D & E odds camp from 18 June to 20 June..
There was a sense of excitement in my spirit when I decided to go for the D.E.O camp!
And obviously, for the past few days I have been attending the D.E.O camp!!

All of the leaders, camp commander and the planning team are really amazing!
I really enjoyed myself in the camp! (:
The great fellowship, sentosa amazing race, buffet for dinner, water bomb, steamboat for lunch, roti prata for supper, worship session in the morning and lastly service with Dominic and Pastor Troy Marshall.
All these make the whole D.E.O camp more exciting and fun! Im sure it was an awesome opportunity to just fellowship and gets to know more of our fellow D & E odds zone mates.

As for myself, I felt that services with Dominic and Pastor Troy Marshall really impacted me in many different ways. Not only that, I have learned a lot through out the whole services and im glad to share with everyone that I really really got minster.

I bet every one of us in the camp will rise up to a whole new level, experience god in a new different way and heard him speaking to all of us.
I was totally blown away be the power of god and how he moves in the midst of us!
I believed is the faith that is inside of all of us. Faith attracts god and faith will build us to the agreement to god. The place of agreements is the place of power.
I feel a break through for our church! Heart of god church it is going to break through! (:

Lastly, I felt that this D.E.O camp really helps to stretch our capacity inside of us. And make us go beyond our limits..
The whole camp just goes so smoothly and ended with a blast!

See you guys in church for combine service later!! (: Please remember tmr is fathers' day and there will not be any service, so dont come to church and stay home!! I heard the bed is calling my name now.. hahaha!!

P.s: For those who never go for the camp and you are not there, you really miss out all the exciting and fun things happening around in the camp man!! Im really sad for you!
But I think that’s not the worst, I think the worst was you all did turn out for both services which was with Dominic during the first day of the camp and Pastor Troy Marshall during the second day of the camp. Let me tell you, if you miss this, you really miss out a lot a lot!! The strong presence of god, super duper powerful sermons, most happening and anointing… Awwwww, you really miss it all!

I MISS PASTORS AND LYNETTE..

2009-06-15T23:57:00.001+14:00

Was on usher duty today for the B and C zone revival night.. I felt a burden in my heart while traveling down to church. Something really really occupied my mind was the attendance of the connect group, how’s the integration and are the people coming back for service?

Though it’s a B and C zone revival night with Pastor Troy Marshall.. I really got minster. During ministry, the presence of god was there so strong! it was so powerful and I bet it was out of everyone’s expectation.

Pastor Troy prayed for me and he said that he could see the overwhelming blessing coming upon me. When it starts, nothing can stop it. Cause I will be like the empty vessels. Faith is increasing inside of me.. I believed that all things are possible through Christ.

Im having ‘o’ level this year and I will be take down from ministry and everything. But I will still connect with church, connect with the connect group and I will still bring new friends! I wouldn’t allow my ‘o’ level to be a reason or obstruction for me to be unconnected, slack or even worst back slight.

I know that pastors really love and care for us so they take us down from ministry therefore we can put in more time and effort in studying. I promise I will study hard and spent more time on studying. To scored well for my ‘o’ level and glorify god..

I will still remain praying for the church, pastors, leaders and connect group..

I REALLY MISS PASTORS AND LYNETTE!!

2009-06-03T20:57:00.001+14:00

Changing from xx to xx, I felt so LEFT OUT.. I thought that I would have a greater chance to xxxxxx but in the end im wrong! Im always not involve in the things happening around. The PROBLEM laid on me, or you all? You said that I must try to connect with them and most important you but do you know that it’s very hard?? Do you know how I feel? Do you know what am I thinking about? I feel that the more I connect, the more unconnected I am. Im not involve in things, so I don’t even know what you all are talking about.. So how am I going to connect to you all? Tell me HOW?????

My name will never get to appear in your mind, and im always out of your sight. When ever something happen and you need help.. The people that first appear in your mind and in your sight will always be them!! Why am I always out of your sight? Why is my name always not in your mind? WHY? WHY are all the things happening?? ALL THIS MAKE ME FEEL LIKE IM USELESS AS A PERSON.. AND IM GOOD FOR NOTHING!!!!

I got ENOUGH and I REALLY DO! I have cling on for so long but things still remain the same.. You told me that you will try you best to help me but what have you done? Okay.. Maybe you did something. But it’s just that SHORT- TERM of happiness and change. Can I tell you something? I rather don’t have any happiness and hope than SHORT- TERM happiness, change and hope. Im TIRED, REALLY TIRED!!! NOT ONLY PHYSICALLY BUT ALSO SPIRITUALLY!!

WHY????
I HATE MY LIFE! I HATE MYSELF!

2009-05-28T16:47:00.000+14:00

singapore

Here are three impacts of being a typical Singaporeans.
Kia su [fear of losing]
Kia si [fear of death]
Cheapo [cheap skate]

Which do you think is the most serious causes of being a typical Singaporeans? Explain your answer. [13 m]

I agreed that kia su, Kia si and cheapo are serious causes of being a typical Singaporeans. Typical Singaporeans are people who care only about themselves and don't give a hoot about others, those who have eyes and mouths. But don't really know the reason why they had eyes and mouths.
I don't think it's a compliment when people call you a "typical Singaporean". In fact, you should be ashamed of yourself. Typical Singaporean does not equal unique Singapore.

Basically, kia su points to those who wants to get the most for what ever they pay for. In short, getting the best deals in the cheapest possible way, preferably free!! It’s just their constant mad rush to get above each others that turns them into kiasu people. Mentality of the people always want the best than anyone else that causes people behave the way they are today, kiasu. And the syndrome is quite apparent.

For example, it’s after office hours, and you're stuck inside a bloody crowded MRT train. You're alighting at the next stop. So you slowly maneuver your way to the nearest door.
But the problem is some Singaporeans refuse to cooperate. Despite your desperate pleas of "Excuse me, please", nobody bothers about you. Some move back a little to try to make space for you to exit, but others don't care a hoot about you.
After struggling for a while, you're finally standing in front of the door, waiting for the door to open, thinking that the worst is finally over. But because life is a…, you suddenly see many people rushing into the train the moment the door opens, and pushing you into the train, leaving you with absolutely no space to exit that train.
Think about this. There is a reason why the station is filled with slogans like "Allow the passenger to alight before boarding" and there is also a reason why those yellow arrows are painted on the floors. So that you know what to do when the door opens. But then again, Singaporeans, being the typical Singaporeans, think they know better.

As for the factor kia si, Singaporeans have extremely high level of tolerance and as long as they can bring food to the table for their family, they can accept intimidation, inefficient and even a very corrupted government because they are afraid to stand up and make their own stand. They are worried that if they do so like standing up for their rights in the workforce, they will faced difficulties in work in the future or sometime even worst they might faced the chance of being sack by the boss. Therefore, most of the Singaporeans are afraid and scared to stand up for their own rights in the workforce and this lead them to become a kia si Singaporean than also leads to being a typical Singaporeans.

Lastly as for the factor, being cheapo. Cheapo can be translated to cheapskate and it can be then translated to "stingy creep".

For example, 1. Go to McDonald, order ONE cup of coffee or tea. Ask for plain water, and more plain water. Bring back some packets of sugar. Do your reading or studying there at least for 4 hours, and you will save some electricity bills.. And help to save the earth.
2. Queue at selected MRT every morning to get free Today newspapers (80 cents for a newspaper is terribly expensive). If you miss it, go to 7-eleven and buy the cheapest item available, and request for a free Today.
3. Buy 1 foot-long of Subway and ask the waiter to divide it into 2, for you and your friend. That way, you will save at least $1.50.
4. Talking about bread, do you know the CHEAPEST bread loaf in Singapore? It is the ever famous 1 dollar FairPrice bread that can last for at least 6 breakfasts. That's 17 cents per breakfast. UNBELIEVABLE!!!
5. Stay up late in the office to make phone calls using office phones. Never use your handphone. Bonus: Boss will think that you are hardworking.
6. Go to bed early. If you wake up late and need to take cab to work, the whole week's cheapskate efforts will go to waste.
Singaporeans that have this mindset are really cheapo. That also lead to being a typical Singaporeans.

There are many factors that cause of being a typical Singaporeans and in conclusion, I agreed that all three impact kia su, Kia si and cheapo are serious causes of being a typical Singaporeans.

Hahaha!! (: 13 marks??

2009-05-27T21:57:00.000+14:00

Sometimes in life, you just got to learn how to appreciate things around you. You might feel that your life is complicated and it totally suck and you decided to make an important decision. either to leave him or not leave him. But things happening around you were not what you wanted and you decided to leave. I know that you will definitely miss the people here but im not sure that you will miss him not. I really don’t know what are you thinking about.. Things that you done make me feel like you are trying to attract attention. So it is the fact or it just a third party making a statement? What on earth is in your mind now?? What are you thinking about??

I think I really stand it.. They are so good to you but yet you don’t show any expression or words of appreciation. They are not even that good to me! In this one year plus, I have not received any presents or gift from anyone of them not even a BIRTHDAY CARDS. But yet they have done so much for you.. When I found out what they have done for you.. Yes, I felt jealous and I felt envy. But there is anger in my heart, they have done so much but what have you done for them? Don’t even have any expression? Don’t even have any words of appreciation? And all you do is keep quiet? Don’t you feel any guilt or sorry feeling inside of you?

They are so busy but they are willing to put down everything just to do or get something for you, but you… I really got nothing to say but want to tell you that how I hoped they can be so good to me. You might feel and think that, “ oh, you want I can give it to you.” But it’s the feeling that when people have it and you don’t have that matters. I am envy, I am jealous, I am sad. Cause they are not that good to be.. But at least I appreciate them. How about you?

P.s: It’s the small parts and parcels that make up a sweet and memorable past time..

2009-05-27T21:25:00.001+14:00

Yesterday was Benjamin wing birthday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BEN WING!!! (:
Went down to seng kang with D10 to celebrate his birthday.. I felt so out of place. Cause they are all D10, but who cares? Have lots of fun.. Went home with weiling, jerlyn and Cherie. Have a great time fellowshipping with the three of them.
Accompany Cherie to see doctor at the silver cross clinic opposite my house.. It’s just so awesome spending time with Cherie! Talk to her about church, our childhood, character, people, my vision.. Hahaha (: the feeling is just so nice talking to her.

HAIS!! I scored badly for my mid year.. The result suck!! I think I totally screw up my mid year exam.. Im so scared and worried now. I might have PO anytime and anywhere! Argh, I just hope that everything will be okay man!

Chinese intensive started on Tuesday… and it end on Thursday.
INTENSIVE INTENSIVE AND INTENSIVE!! My brain is full of Chinese now, and I think that it’s a good sign. Cause this shows that I learn something through the intensive. Hahaha (: Chinese ‘o’ level on this coming Monday!!!! I can’t believe that. It’s like about 4 more days?? Oh man..
Nights everyone!! I think I need to sleep now.. im going to KO already!

2009-05-21T13:59:00.000+14:00

Science (physic/chemistry) – 1 hour
Biology – 1 hour

Hahaha!! Today is the last day of exam and tmr no school.. I got a feeling inside of me like “whoa, finally” because every time I go church there confirm will be somebody saying “oh, my exam are over, exam are over...” so irritating can!!
But now, my exams are over!!

Anyway, tell you guys what I do during the biology papers okay??
Cause today papers are all MCQ.. I only took up 45 minutes to do and check. So im boring that I decided to take a nap.
When I lay down on the table, i feel so uncomfortable that I wake up and decided to do some drawing!
As I got no paper, I flip the biology question paper over and start drawing.. the first thing that come into my mind was church. So I draw the adi, stage, basically everything la. Than when the teachers said “pens down”, im like okay.. I finish drawing already..
It’s so funny, if you want to see.. When I take back the papers, I take a photo of it and blog about it okay?? Hahaha (:

Felicia went down to toa payoh to look for me and we travel down to toa payoh polyclinic to find wan ting. Have a nice chat with Felicia! (: it’s just so nice spending time with her.. she is so busy! And today, she change her plan just because of me.. So touch! I can really feel her love!! FELICIA, I LOVE YOU!

Went to church, Mel was so sad today! Made a card for her.. Cheer up Mel! We all lo0ve you!! (: smile okay? Anyway, sorry for the ugly drawing and hand writing! ):

Yup yup!! That’s all.. There is RED RAIN PRAYER MEETING TMR AND FOLLOW BY THE RED RAIN CONCERT!!!!! IT’S GONNA BE FUN AND EXCITING, AMEN? YOU GUYS GOT TO COME MAN!! (: CALL ME AND SEE YOU..

LOVE GOD. LOVE PEOPLE. LOVE LIFE.

2009-05-19T02:37:00.000+14:00

Hahaha!! My weekend ended with a blast! How about you?? Anyway, want to know why my weekend was so exciting and ended with a blast?! Check it out…

Pastor How preaches about GOD OF THE GENERETION on Saturday and Sunday service. Though both services was on the same sermon.. I feel that Sunday was more powerful than Saturday! If you never come for Sunday service, you really lose out man! Hahaha (:

God think in generation and god is a god of generation! (: spent quite some times dwelling in the presence of god during praise.. the stronger presence of god was there and I felt it! god spoke to me and I guess god speak to everyone standing in heart of god church.

The altar call at the end of the service was so powerful! Pastor asked weather we will be like the Meshach, Shadrach and Abed-Nego. Saying that “I RATHER BURN THAN BOW”. And these who say yes, kneed down on our knee together with pastor and the leader. It’s so so powerful! The presence of god is there.. So strong!

And now, once again saying that I rather burn than bow!

2009-05-16T04:15:00.000+14:00

EXAM STARTED!! Hahaha (: Dots!! I some how got a feeling that I will did badly.. One more week and EXAM IS OVER!! BUT it means that ‘O’ level mother tongue paper is coming! Hahaha (: got to really work hard and study! JORINE LEE, IT TIME TO WAKE UP UH?

Today’s chemistry paper killed everyone!! Hahaha.. I think I will really do badly for it though I studied for so long yesterday. Never study for math this time round. I prayed that I can pass or even do well. Cause my classmate say that the paper was easy.. But I don’t think so. Anyway yup!! Hahaha (: 1 more week to go!!

Went for school of worship (SOW) audition for drums.. It so scary! Hahaha (: cant really play well on the drum set but the rest was quite okay.. hahaha!I prayed that I can get into SOW! I want to serve, I want to play!! Hahaha (:
Result is coming out today.. And I have been checking my mail for like over 20 times. Kind of like over worried and scary.. I have faith that I can get in SOW!!Hahaha! (:

Going for cg later at Melissa’s house.. meeting at bishan at 4. after cg, I might be going to town with Ben lee and other people.. so not confirmed. Will update again!! Hahaha (: bye! And please prayed for me for my SOW result!! (:

2009-05-07T10:57:00.000+14:00

My life seems to be in a mess now and I wonder why..
Because I did not plan and organize my life well enough or it’s just that there are too many things happening?

Few days back, I was taking to Nicholas Tan on msn.. We started discussing about my post and he say that I was emoing!! Dots -.- I deny. But actually, I think I did and I am.

Nicholas Tan! If you are reading this post, im sorry!! Hahaha (:
This few days I have been thinking about.. I tried to control but I can’t!!!!! I REALLY CAN’T!!

I HATE MYSELF, I HATE MY LIFE!

2009-05-06T13:47:00.002+14:00

MID- YEAR EXAMINATION IN 7 HOURS AND 28 MINUTES TIME!! (:
EMOTION STATE: SUPER STRESS AND SCARED -.-

Hi guys!!Good luck for mid year and give it our best uh? I believe that we all can do it!! Jiayous and let’s bring god glory!! Hahaha (: Have faith and we can do it!! (:

Philippians 4:6-7
6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, weioth thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to god;
7 and the peace of god, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Philippians 4:13
i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me..

2009-05-06T12:52:00.004+14:00

Hey! People taking exam this few days, feeling stress and cant breathe? can’t wait for exam to be over? And people not studying now.. Got nothing to do at home and looking for some exciting and fun to do?? Hahaha..

On 23rd and 24th of May, there will be the RedRain concert held in Heart of God!! It’s a great chance for all of us to get to know some new friend and also a good chance to get to know God! More than that, it’s going to be fun and exciting uh?

23rd May 09, 5pm to 7pm
24th May 09, 3pm to 5pm

some photo for you guys..

Please inform me if you want to come!! Hahaha (:

2009-05-04T13:35:00.000+14:00

MID- YEAR EXAMINATION IN 47 HOURS AND 25 MINTUES TIME!! (:
Im totally not looking for it..
Reason number 1: Im really not prepared.
Reason number 2: After mid year, it means that my ‘o’ level mother tongue paper is round the corner..
Im so stress now -.-

Time flies, and this is my last year in school! October 26 I will be taking my ‘o’ level and now it’s May. But Here I am still slacking and playing a fool.. I feel that I don’t have any sense of urgency. All my friends are already studying and preparing for ‘o’ level!! I wonder if it’s they kiasu or whatsoever.

Now I really sense the peer pressure around me.. And I have decided to start studying for mid year and ‘o’ level now. Though it’s quite late to study for mid year now but its okay case it doesn’t affected my ‘o’ level result. And I know if I start studying for my ‘o’ level now.. I will be able to score well! (:

Emotion state: SUPER STRESS!

Hey guys! (: If you are taking exam now, Good luck and give all your best! Jiayous and let’s bring god glory together.. Hahaha (:

JORINE LEE!! IT’S TIME TO WAKE UP AND START STUDYING!! JIAYOUS FOR YOUR MID YEAR AND MOST IMPORTANTLY YOUR ‘O’ LEVEL!! (:

2009-05-03T13:47:00.000+14:00

I hate my life and I really do..
What do I actually do that cause you to do this to me? You know you should not do this but you still did it? What is your motive behind it? What you want from me?

Stop being envy and jealous.. There is no used for all this things! And so what you do all this to me? Yea, I agreed I got affected but I believe on the other hand you don’t get back anything! But just a short term of happiness. Then what is the use?

At the end of the day, the will still be the same right? Cause you don’t even have the rights and authority to say of reject things.. And maybe that is why you do all this to me right??
I don’t need an answer but just a stop. A stop to everything can??

Just for you info, it’s not only affecting me but many other people! And don’t think everyone like you and you are super well like. People saying bad thing behind your back you also don’t know. I have heard it all.. You are just like a loser to me man! Dots!!!

I mean seriously, don’t be irritating and continue with life uh? Stop causing trouble to everyone..

2009-05-02T23:19:00.000+14:00

Hahaha!! Dinner at chomp chomp with D13 was fun and exciting!! (:
Food, food and food! Hahaha.. It’s such a great time of fellowship man! Gonna to have more of this kind of outing! And I bet D13 will be bonded.. But of course, not only that, being spiritual strong and build a great foundation of prayer!
D13 is going to GROW!!

D13 24 hours prayer relay started at 2pm to 4pm on Friday!
It was powerful and awesome!! The presence of god was so strong and god spoke..
Jamie prayed for me! God is really amazing.. And I love him! (: Do you??

Anyway, this weekend is going to be exciting! service with Pastor lia on saturday and Steve Munsey on sunday! Hahaha.. looking forward for service! Are you? (:
See you guys tmr.. Nights (:

2009-05-02T23:07:00.000+14:00

7 things I hate about Christianity!!
1. Hypocritical
2. Judge mental
3. Anti-everything
4. Irrelevant and sheltered
5. Only interested in ‘converting’ people
6. Users, takers and consumers
7. BORING!!

Hahaha!! Yes, im a Christian and I attend church. But honestly, Pastors preach about this for service last week.And he says, “don’t be a Christian!!!” Hahaha.. Don’t be shock I have not finish the sentence.. “Don’t be a Christian but be Christ like. Don’t believe in Christianity but believe in Christ.”

Hahaha.. I then realize that there are really Christian that have this few factors and it kind of really irritating me! They flatter and act just trying to be a hypocrite. Plus plus, the worst thing is they don’t even know about it! I can’t stand it anymore! They are really a hypocrite and it’s really irritating me. I understand why there are Christians like this.

Irritating!!!!

2009-04-21T02:53:00.000+14:00

Hahaha!! I was reading Nicholas tan’s blog and I agree to one of his post.. It says “I somehow agree that not knowing too much is a good thing” some how I agree with it too..

2009-04-14T01:56:00.000+14:00

Hahaha!! Easter celebration in church was great!! The overwhelming presence of god, the great fellowship, the of course the food and drink. Make the whole celebration of Easter more exciting and fun!! Hahaha.. Guys, if you are not there.. I guess you all really miss out man!

Invite kuan cheng to church on friend’s Easter service, and it’s 41^st day.. Whoa, the presence of god was really strong. Not very sure if kuan cheng feel it but im sure that the Holy Spirit will be around him and he will be saved soon or later! Everyone that I bring will be saved and planted in church. Hahaha!! Have faith and it will come to pass, im trying to 4D now, can you??

Im so looking forward for next weeks service.. Pastor how is going to continue the sermons on 7 things I hate about Christian. Hmmm, don’t be shock!And Yes, im a Christian.. And I attend church. And same goes to my pastors and everyone else in church. Hahaha!! (: feeling confused and want to find out what is it about?? Contact me and I will invite you to church. Check it up yourself.. And I will make sure you check in and never check out! Hahaha!! (:

The movie knowing was quite nice.. Go and watch if you have not. But please don’t blame me if you feel that it’s not nice. Dots -.- hahaha!! Anyway, a gentle reminder.. Please don’t watch the movie love!! If you watch that movie, it’s like throwing your money down the drain. It’s the most most stupid and lame show I ever watched in my whole life. The worst thing is the story line was so bad till you don’t get and understand the story. Oh my gosh..

Anyway, my life was great!! How about yours?? Mind to share? If not you can always text me! Hahaha (: got to do homework now!! Bye bye, nights!

2009-04-07T01:56:00.000+14:00

Hahaha!! I got no school today.. Because my school has some parents meeting staff. Therefore, all peicaians got no school. I went running with Glenn, derrick and weling this morning at 4.30 am. Wei ling and I run 10 rounds but to be exact we run 8 rounds and walk 2 rounds. Cool luh?? I really can’t believe myself running 8 rounds but I did!

Went for parents meeting and went down to church after that. So I meet Mabel, Jeanette, weiling, Audrey, Alvin and Ben. Have our breakfast there and went down to raffles place because Mabel wanted to get a laptop bag. Can’t find any bag that is nice in raffles city and we decided to take a rest in mos burger. Seat there, slack and learn some hand sign for a book that Mabel borrow from the library. It’s so funny and fun while we are learning it. Hahaha

Went down to church and decided to go for cg.. Cg was really powerful!! The presence of god was so strong. This shows me the power of all the people coming together to pray and I, myself praying at home during QT. the different is rather quite obvious. He spoke to me.. Not only I could hear it myself but also when huimin was praying for me. Jamie asked all the leaders to pray for us. Leaders going around praying for people and huimin pray for me. The things that god tell me was quite similar to what huimin pray and tell me. Now I can really confirm that its god!

I injured my leg while going home.. so stupid! Hmmm, it’s kind of like pain and swollen now. And the worst thing is, it’s affecting my sleep. Although I already placed a pillow under my leg to lift it up. It’s still very pain. While messaging huimin, she asks me whether I can talk on the phone and I reply yea. She called and pray for me. Asking me to lay hand on my leg and pray.. And so I did. Manage to sleep after everything.. Thanks huimin!! Hahaha

Hey guys, thanks for your care and concern. (: Nights!! And I LOVE YOU ALL!!

2009-04-01T05:48:00.000+14:00

Hahaha!! We took this photo during christmas 2008.. we really have fun!! (:
This was taken in D odds chalet 2009..

kaye was saying that im bullying her ahma!! dots..
Nadine was holding on a frog in her hand! (:

Yolanda pour a cup of water on mabel!! jamie was really shock..
Yolanda was saying that "i bet this was when we poured water on someone." hahaha
Sat service.. Wear a tie weekend! hahaha.. cool uh??

that's all!! have fun everyone and i hope you enjoy!

2009-03-26T18:57:00.000+14:00

Went to meet alvina at bishan cause I ask her to teach me math.. Felicia bought me bubble tea!! Hahaha (: trying her best to cheer me up. After she left, I saw pollyna and her friend walking into mos.. I guess they are having lunch or something luh? Than I saw Cherie! Hahaha (:

Im so excited for service this Saturday!! Benjamin is coming back.. Not only that the whole CEG are going to wear tie for service! This idea comes from some of us because we went shopping at bugis. Some how or another we all decided to buy a tie. After that all of us thought of wearing it for service on Saturday! Than we thought of like asking the whole CEG to wear and so… we are going to do it!

It so exciting!! Imagine the whole CEG seating together?? it will be so cool! And imagine pastor looking at us on stage when he is preaching?? He will be able to see 1 or 2 row of people wearing tie!! And it’s the whole row, not only like one or two person wearing..

Hey CEG, you got to come for Saturday service and join in the fun man!! You will really miss out if you don’t come..

To other hogc member, remember to spot us and take a look! It’s going to be cool and exciting! Hahaha (:

Yup yup!! So see you guys on Saturday.. bye!

2009-03-25T20:23:00.000+14:00

I believe that it’s the consequence of not studying.. Exam scripts are all given back to us. And I did badly for all the subjects.. Im so disappointed with myself! I cant really describe my feeling now but im just very disappointed with myself.. How could I ever take this kind of results? There is a parents meeting sessions next Friday. And at the same time we will be collecting our progress repot slip.. I hope that I wun have PO!

O level is coming and I left with 7 MONTHS for me to study.. And about 2 MONTHS to o level Chinese paper. Time flies but im still slacking, thinking that I still got lots of time. Stupid!

2009-03-21T17:16:00.000+14:00

Hahaha!! Today was the last day of D odds chalet! And I really enjoyed myself.. Foods like the pizzas/bubble tea, night walk at Pasir Ris Park with Jamie and some other people, the great fellowship, throwing each other in the pool within minutes of arrival, the games like flying black chicken, catching frogs, the 2 hours worship session, it was sure an awesome oppurtunity to just fellowship and get to know more of our fellow zone mates!!! A chance helping up in games and being a game IC make me think and look things at a different angle and have a great experience in life. And cause of the game, i officially announce that im not scared of frog anymore! Hahaha (:

Everyone was so tired and on the way home everyone of us seem to be like going to KO anytime.. lol! Because Felicia got quite a lot of staff to do when she got home despite being so tired I decided to buy tuo hua for her!! Went home, change and went to surprise her with the tuo hua. This time round I success.. Went to Melissa’s house to WATCH TV! I really really KO in her house.. Im so tired.

Today is Friday and the next two day im going to church. Thought come into my mind.. And I begin to ask myself. I have not been studying, how?? Hahaha (: I really don’t know. I have not been catching up with my school work but yet im not studying and trying. How can this happen to me? O levels is in 7 MONTHS TIME!!

I think I really need to go and study now.. Bye guys. Thanks for reading!! (:

2009-03-12T15:47:00.000+14:00

Hi everyone!! hahaha (:

I never thought that common test will be so stress.. Maybe cause im still sec 1, 2 or 3 that time. Now im secondary 4 and everything seem to be different and of course same goes to all my feeling toward tests and exam!! Now I see things in a different angle..

2 more days to go!! Common test 1 will be over and it’s holiday!! Hahaha.. but now, I still got to study hard and keep mugging! Sad but I know when the whole things end I will be able to relax and have fun! Through all this things, I realize that my mum really love me. This morning she went to brought Bandung for me!! Hahaha (: so i have it while im studying biology for the next day exam..

Emotion state: STRESS!

2009-03-08T21:35:00.000+14:00

COMMON TEST IN 20 HOURS AND 25 MINUTES TIME!! (:
Im kind of looking forward for it.. But yet im not prepare. Looking forward for it because after common test it will be the March holiday break! And I have planned all the exciting thing in all seven day.. hahaha (:

Actually the most exciting of all is the D odds chalet!! Hahaha.. it on the 19th and 20th march 2009, 2pm, pasir ris mrt. I believe that it’s going to be exciting. And it’s really exciting! GAMES, FOOD AND GREAT FELLOWSHIP! Friends, if you want to come along with me.. just message me or give me a call luh?! Hahaha (: D ODDS CHALET, HERE I COME!

Common test is so stress.. Why it seem to be only our school have common test? All other schools only got class test?? But actually it’s kind of good because I fail my entire test and common test is the only one for me to pull my marks up. I believe I can make it though im still not prepare. Dot dot dot -.-

STRESS STRESS STRESS!! How can I reduce all this stress?? I got to do well, this is my last year! Im taking o level in October! I must do well!